I had been waiting my whole life for this one moment. I had dreamed about what it would be like since I was a little girl. There he was, on one knee, with my family and friends surrounding us. We were celebrating my 30th birthday, and now my engagement! I said yes! It was such an exciting time. Fast forward 353 days, two months and two days before the wedding. It was the night before my bridal shower. We ended things and I was crushed. I can’t say I didn’t see it coming, but I actively fought against it throughout our entire relationship. I thought, “Relationships are tough. Love is a choice. I don’t give up on the people that I love. It’ll get better.”

As we discuss the topic of healing this month on the Worthy of Grace Ministries blog, the first thing that can come to our minds is physical healing. In the Gospel narratives, we read many great stories of Jesus healing ailments of all types. The stories of the blind seeing for the first time, the infirm finally walking after a lifetime of immobility, and many more miraculous accounts touch our hearts as Christians today. The truth is that the Lord continues to perform physical healing in our day.

When the pain of your hurting heart becomes overwhelming, and the light at the end of the tunnel seems impossible to see, it's natural to become overwhelmed and question where to begin your healing journey. I've been there too. I’ve questioned my faith in God's comfort when the pain clouded my mind from thinking clearly, making it hard to see any good. Maybe you've felt this way too. Have you ever wondered and said things to yourself like, “Will I hurt like this forever?

Not in a million years did the thought of anxiety and depression ever cross my mind as something I’d have to live with. Never did I entertain the thoughts of despair and excruciating, debilitating pain mentally. But here I am, almost four years after being diagnosed with postpartum anxiety and depression, battling some of the same issues.

I wish I could wipe away every hurt, rejection, and loss the world has thrown at you so that you wouldn't have to experience the deep wounds and heartaches that are inevitable to happen to us on this side of heaven. But, I do know that though I can't protect you from hurting, the Holy Spirit that Christ guaranteed to us can provide the healing your hurting so desperately needs. Who is the Holy Spirit, and how does he heal our heartaches?